Question

Hey guys any suggestion about what I should write about next? I don’t know if you all know this or not but I’m from Lahore, Pakistan and sadly there was explosion(could be a bomb blast/not confirmed yet) in one of the most secure locations and many people will injured and about 9 killed. So everything is a bit too chaotic here while we drive as quickly as we can to reach our homes from schools and we see crying mothers embrace their children when they finally see them, alive and secure. You are frantically searching for your friends and everyone that you care about because you never know whether this could be the last time you ever see their faces. The authorities are doing everything they can to catch whoever is behind these attacks.  If u could pls take out time and pray for our safety, I’d be extremely grateful.

Last moments

A brisk, blustery cool wind blew past me, escaping into the marshmallow white clouds that hung loosely in the sky. I always wondered how a place could manage to be as icy cold as a crypt and at the same time have gods scorching morning star blazing alongside the clouds. There was a whole dimension of various seasons here all the time, never making us feel as though we lacked any climate in our life. Though we didn’t lack any experience in relation to nature, we did however lack basic comfort due to our constant struggle against the enemy.

As i walk now further into the city, I see the the wrecked buildings that were razed by the drones, flying overhead a few days ago, wisps of silver-grey smoke spreading from their engines and demolishing everything in its path. All we can do is condemn such atrocities and stare at the gbroken, scattered bricks of the once merlot and ricotta counters of the candy store we loved to visit; when it was actually full of life. The road was the only infrastructure that could be trusted as it survived the weapons of destruction, and one could not venture into the countryside without risking a fall in a hole or being caught in a barbed wire.

We used to see uniform spring green grass swaying in the wind before the war but now beyond the meadows all I see is tussocks and flattened pickle green grass, each tuft now dull yellow in the sun, and clear patches where innocent lives are buried; no cobblestones to indicate their significance in the world. From the distance all one can hear is slight chirping of birds and an unavoidable nothingness is all that life has become now, waiting for our rescue team to return and take us away from the country we once called our home.

The silence after war is like a void; broken by noise which shatters it like glass, noise that is produced by the after effects of the destruction. Screeching sounds of bridges falling, cries for help and also the lack of life to break the deafness with ragged breaths and the despair of not hearing the beating of a human heart.

I feel the decrepitude of my childhood now that I realise how time has passed too quickly, from peace to war, from the smell of lilacs on a cool spring morning to the metallic smell of blood even before dawn. As my blistered feet come into contact with the ground, I attempt to grasp the only memory of a tranquil life I had in this place, I realise that I would soon be rescued and will be on the other side of the crenelated border that Yemen has created with the rest of the world.

Ever lasting?

I sometimes question whether waiting for something mind blowing and ever lasting is better than having something satisfactory and temporary right now?

sorry for not posting even though I’d love to but life is way to be busy and the most important exams of my life are coming up so rarely get time  😭

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That’s me☺️

The universe

imageWhat was it that Henry Poincare used to say, “astronomy is important because it raises us above ourselves” and how we can embrace the whole dazzlingly immensity of the universe whereas the body is only a vessel containing our intelligent mind.

Let us go back into time when Ptolemy’s geocentric theory was adopted by everyone. A motionless planet in the center of the universe with dark, slightly gleaming spots of water and an abrupt, contrasting transition from the light-colored surface to the absolutely black sky in space. The earth as it is known comprised of imperfect material which was ever-changing. Round solid spheres made of crystalline, transparent substance orbited around the earth in circles.

However later this was proved incorrect and the heliocentric theory came into being. As evident from the name, ‘helio’ referred to the sun. A glowing medallion of scorching hot gases surround by planets was the centre of the universe. A glinting orris-silver halo, with depressions in it surrounded the earth, later entitled as the ‘Moon’. It channeled the light of the blazing sun onto the earth under the starry sky and returned it during daytime.

Johannes Kepler later discovered that the planets moved around the fiery sun in elliptical orbits and not circular ones. Thus the blazing, saffron sun no longer remained the epitome of God in the universe because it was proved to be at one focus of the ellipse rather than at the center. This was quite similar to a merry-go-around which slanted towards the point which held more weight. As the celestial fireball sent charges of energy outside, the planets got attracted towards it and started orbiting it.

Galileo Galilei concluded that the universe seemed to be composed of material similar to that of earth rather than a perfect and unchanging substance. Isaac Newton revealed that the universe was one huge regulated machine that operated according to natural laws in absolute time, space, and motion. These scientists confirmed the magnificence to the unknown galaxy and revealed its most prominent characteristics.

Now that I look up, I see clouds and their light shadows on the distant light blue sky as they descend into oblivion, as the sun sets. The sun no longer burning like Titans fiery wheel in the sky brings a rich colour spectrum as the dark blue aureole in the sky gradually darkens, turning turquoise, violet and finally coal black. The glimmering sun has set and the moon, a wraith-silver disc hangs in the lonely sky. I was beguiled by the beauty as lasers of moonlight, as bright as diamond-flame, landed in the shimmering water.

I discovered yet again that I was nothing compared to the wonders of the word but in the eyes of the people who loved me, I was the brightest shining star in the whole universe. A star was nothing in comparison to the silver-bullet moon and Gods morning star.

Too soon

It’s sad how I have so much love in me but I don’t have someone I can give it to or someone who loves me back. I enjoy reading all these quotes about love and soul mates and someone being your saving grace. I watch heartwarming movies and cry at the end because I feel as though it is something I may go through. I have too much love, one that I cannot contain and I do not know what to do with it. I’m madly in love with the idea of being in love but I don’t know why that is so. I have a lot of people who care about me but I don’t have that certain someone and at this point in life when you’re not certain about anything, I do not wish to be uncertain about the love I give away. So I hold it in, this desire to have someone whom I could completely and utterly trust, someone with whom I can be my absolute self without caring about the fact that they might leave me. I want to be crazy to the fullest, be as childish as I can and lie under the stars and contemplate life with someone who wants to enjoy those things, as much as I want, with me. That is the love i so infinitely desire and though I may be excited about that feeling, I want to be delve in love but be prudent in it as well. For I do not wish to love someone too soon and face the consequences and lose them too soon.

Star dust¿

I can judge pretty well whether something is good for me or not and when I looked at you the first thing that came to my mind was that u were going to be chaotic for me. That was the first time I was ever wrong because you continuously proved yourself to be someone without whom I would’ve been nothing. You validated that it was wrong for me to not provide people with the chance to improve themselves; that I had to allow people to reveal themselves fully before I could decide if they deserved a place in my life or not. For you were there when no one else was, when I wanted to fly, you convinced me that were limits to everything and thus some things in life are impossible. You were the impossible; an embodiment of all the perception of a utopian world I had and a perfect life that I got the minute you walked into it. Guess you could call it destiny, that we were meant to be soul mates but I think it’s different than that. You were the first person I let in, the first person who was given the opportunity to break my walls while I shut the rest of the world out. I finally realised that by discovering different people, you also begin to reveal yourself and if you trust someone enough to allow them to discover your personality further then truly, they are more than just a trace of star dust in your life. 

Guys if you could all please tell your friends or follower about your account id be extremely grateful Because I’m barely getting like 2 likes and I work hard to express myself so I’d like more people to read it and reply and like if they enjoy it so I can get feedback and my blog can be more interactive. My posts are emotions that I actually feel and sometimes this blog is the only place I can turn to for help so please do comment and ask more people to follow if they’re interested in helping a rather lost soul. Thank u💕

New year

You were there for me, whether it was for a diminutive thing or whether it is a favour I can never come to encompass or repay. But you were there, your presence I felt throughout. And though we may have not spent the new year together, I had the comfort of knowing that in some corner of the world, someone is smiling at their phone while sending a ‘happy new year’ text to me. It’s the lingering feeling of being wanted that you provide to me and no matter how much I try to show my gratitude to you, it can never be equal to the value you add to my life. Let’s face the inevitable truth that without you lot and all the other souls I know, I’d just be a dull sparking star but a star nonetheless; cause we’re all stars after all and when millions of stars come together and reveal themselves and share their light, a collision of shinning colours evolves, just like fireworks. You mould my personality into who I am, a speck of dust turned into a whole galaxy of revelations🌟

Reveal⭐️

You need to open up to people, how’re you supposed to know whether u want someone more than the rest when all you have is one anchor in the world. Learn to trust people with ur personality revealing it to them throughout the time u spend together and see whether they accept the new you or not. It’s not possible to conclude that you love someone when he or she is the only person you have been opening up to. Obviously if that’s the only person u can trust with yourself you’re bound to think that they’re the one but what if they’re not? What if one day you decide to reveal yourself fully to someone else and turns out you like that certain person more just because of the way he or she handles a situation that you are in? Love completely but do not let it be limited to one person, explore people and learn how much you mean to them and only then conclude whether one of them means a lot more to you than all the rest.

Heyy  guys I’m back! Exams kinda went okay will work harder next term😂 I have this holiday hw if u have any ideas about what I could write pls do tell me. The topics are –

Discoveries

Write a story in which a locked wooden box plays an important part

write a story which includes the sentence ‘the mixture of amazement and relief on my fathers face was something I will always remember.’

 

Choice?

In every moment a choice exists. We can cling to the past or embrace the inevitability of change and allow a brighter future to unfold before us. Such an uncertain future may call for even more uncertain allies. Either way a new day is coming, whether we like it or not. The questions is will you control it or will it control you? – the Originals🎀

heyy im so sorry for not being active. Actually my mid term exams are coming up in 2 days and I’m really not prepared. I’ll be active after the exams. It would be extremely helpful if you could pray my exams go well thank you😭

Daily Prompt: Chaotic

via Daily Prompt: Chaotic

I see can see the chaos in your eyes, the way you think about situations and how their result will always be chaotic in your view.

I can hear screams, shouts, cries of pain  from distant places but I stand still, not urging myself to help those in need because I myself am afraid of chaos. It’s chaos that brings about hurt and hopelessness.

The uncertainty of time and place is chaos in itself, how one can be standing on the platform of the train station at one moment and after a few sounds of shots being fired, is found lying on the train track, with only ambulance sirens in the distance.

The world itself is a chaotic place thus we must not give into the chaos. We must persevere and retain hope despite all that we have been through. Chaos can arise from the smallest of things and so our hearts need to be strong enough to counter such chaos.

Everything is chaotic in its nature and it is us mere mortals that decide whether to let that chaos run free or to protect the rest of the world from it.